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Jay and Christy Pruitt
La'Trisha Monique Pruitt
May 16 1981 - November 24 2007

03/08/2012- Today is your oldest daughter's 11th birthday. Jay and I haven't seen her in a long time but the pictures we have seen she is your mini me... We thought as time went on that things would straighten out but evidently that is never going to happen and we have come to accept that this is the way things will be until they are adults. I hope one day Goose and Smiley will find this site and find that we never stopped loving them. We never forgot them and will always be waiting for them with open arms. You and Momma wrap your girls up in your Angel wings and let them know you are close by. Love ya'll. Til our next lifetime...  

12/22/2011- Hey Chick. Well I got all the christmas decorations up and you and Momma's stockings are hung. This year it's my turn to host Christmas dinner for my side. Which may be a good thing for us. Now that you and Momma are in Heaven it makes this holiday stuff way too much to bear right now. So I am hoping that having my family buzzing around the house will help us heal a little. I am still in shock and the full effect of Momma not being here hasn't settled in yet. I do know that if there is a Heaven and we really get to see our loved ones on the other side that Momma is with you and that brings you some comfort. I took Tweety to see Santa and Mrs. Claus. She is old enough now that the magic of Christmas is staring to take shape for her. I love her innocence. She has been helping me make cookies which for her is a big deal. We even made some cookie dough ornaments. She is such a good helper! It makes her feel like a big girl. Jay and I got the girls a shihtzu puppy. The girls decided they wanted to name him after Michael Jackson. So his name is Jackson. You and Momma would have loved him. He is so adorable. Tweety is so protective of him. That is HER baby. LOL! I hope you and Momma have a Merry Christmas in Heaven, I know I am selfish in a way because how I wish with all my heart you two were still here with us. I miss you two so much... You two were so much a part of my life and will continue to be in my heart and mind until it's my time to join you all. Until I lost you I had never really thought of death and how it can  hurt to lose someone you love or how in a instant the whole face of life as you know it can change and in a blink of an eye you could be gone. At least in life you two knew how much I loved (and still love) the both of you. I talked to Momma just a few hours before she was rushed to the hospital and my last words to her were I love you. Both of you wrap us in your wings and give us some comfort. We need it. I love you two with all my heart. Sending my love to you in Heaven. Til next time..... <3

 

11/15/2011. Hey Sis... I know I haven't been on here to update you. I know Momma is with you now. On my last entry when we went to the hospital we didn't receive good news. UAB denied transferring her to their nuerology treatment specialist. On top of that the Doctors at Princeton ran a few more test to see what Momma's brain activity was and there was none. We fought and Momma fought until we could fight no more. We had to love her enough to let her go and that is the hardest thing I have ever experianced in my life. Jay, Uncle Curtis, Cydney, Brittani and myself stayed with her until her heart took it's last beat. We just held her, kissed her and told her how much we love her. I'm still stunned today. Even though things didn't look good I really thought this was just a wake up call and that Momma would be okay. We still need you two here with us. I mean really now both of you are goneReally? And we are suppose to be okay with this? We are suppose to just carry on like everything is okay? What about Cydney, Tweety, Goose,Smiley & "TJ"? What they can't ever see or speak to their Gannies again? You mean Momma didn't get the chance to reconsile with Goose and Smiley before she passed? Really? So this is how things play out? I am so MAD! You mean no more Momma? We already lost you and still are grieving you. Now remember God's not going to put more on you than you can bear... Utter nonsense. My heart hurts so bad that it takes my breath away. Your brothers, Pop, Uncle Curtis, Cydney, myself- we are dying on the inside. The only miniscule piece of solace I have is knowing Momma is with you, MaDear and her brothers. Mainly you though. Momma never recovered from losing you. Her Winnie. You and Momma wrap us up and hold us tight. Give us strength and peace. Let us know somehow someway that you are together and okay. We love you all beyond description. I guess it is true nothing in life besides death is sure. We are devastated. Love you forever and a day. Until we meet again. :'(

11/09/2011- Hey Duck... We just got a call from the hospital and Momma didn't do so well overnight. Her blood pressure went from being to high to now being to low. Something just doesn't sound right. God I hope UAB is ready to transfer her... Gotta run... Headed back up there to see what's going on. Love you. 

11/08/2011- Hey Sis. I know it's been a few days but Jay and I have been pretty much staying at the hospital until they made us go home.  Even then we just go home long enough to lay in bed a few hours, take a shower and head back up there. So far the reports from the doctors have not been what we were hoping to hear, but we are trying to get her moved to UAB since it's a trauma 1 Center we are hoping that she can get better care and better results there. Princeton I think is giving up and that's not what we need right now. They have added back several iv meds trying to keep her vitals stable. I feel like we are on another emotional roller coaster ride. I don't like how this is begining to look AT ALL. Hopefully UAB will have a bed approved for her tomorrow and we can try to start over there. Man, this is so not the time for this mess. The month of November just needs to be removed from our calendar. I feel like this is the bad luck month for real. People keep telling Jay that God wont put more on him than he can bear... If they only knew, huh? I know that if we lost Momma- we are NOT going to be able to bear it. You know she is the only Momma I have in my life other than my Grandma. Plus, I really don't think that Jay can take it. I can tell that this is already more on them than they can bear. I feel so helpless. It's like I want to do something to make everything be okay, but it's out of all our hands. All I can do is pray. I'm not sure prayer is always enough. I'm going to just keep thinking positive and keep lifting her up. Today other than a breath here and there we didn't get the response we were getting before. That's what scares me the most. Hopefully tomorrow we can get her to UAB and have a different team of doctors try something new.  I don't know if you can tell her to hold on, but if you can tell her we love her beyond measure and that we are doing EVERYTHING we can do. Love you!

11/05/2011- D-worth! It looks like Momma is coming around! THANK GOD! It hasn't been really big responses but her eyes are fluttering, her fingers are moving a bit and her left foot is moving!!! We are stll waiting for a gag reflex against the ventilator and although that hasn't happened yet she is taking small breaths against the machine!!! OMG! I was sooo scared that we were going to lose her! I know we aren't out of the woods by far, but I can't tell you how relieved I am to see improvement! When she wakes up, baaaabbbbaaayyy... I'm going to hug her, kiss her and tell her NEVER to scare us like this again! Jay has been up there cutting up on nurses getting them pulled off of caring for her. You know how he his. He doesn't play when it comes to the main women in his life. Poor Pop, I can tell he is really scared. I was too until today. We get to go in every couple of hours and visit with her and love on her. I hope she can feel and hear us. Today they have been slowly taking medications off and now she is only on saline. So she is also maintaing her blood pressure by herself which is another positive sign. I'm just going to keep praying and keep my fingers crossed. Love you chick!

11/03/2011- Hey Duck... I know you are with us now in our time of need. Momma had another heart attack yesterday and was rushed to Princeton. Wrap your wings around her as we continue to pray for God to heal her body. I don't know what we would do if something was to happen to her! We still aren't (and  will never be) over losing you. The doctor's suggested a experimental hypothermic treatment that they started yesterday. We are hoping that we will start seeing good signs of the next few days. You know we have been thru this before and everything came out okay, so I am just praying. Pop, Jay, Trell and I aren't going to leave her side. I'm hoping that it just looks scarier than it is. Well I love you chick, I just wanted to stop in and tlak to you and tell you to look out for your Momma.

 

 

 

08/19/2011- Hey D-worth! Well today your middle lady is turning 9 years old.. Makes you wonder where the time goes? Tweety went on visitation this weekend so, it is our hope that she gets to spend the weekend with her sisters and celebrate. Now wether or not that happens remains to be seen. Anyhow, I know you are looking down on your ladies smiling at what beautiful young ladies they are becoming. You always were so proud of them. Wrap your beautiful wings around your girls and let them feel your presence. I know they miss their Momma way more than anyone could ever imagine. Miss you chick! ~Christy

08/09/2011- Hey Duck.  I'm just sitting here thinking about you and thought I'd drop you a few lines. We bought Tweety a princess picture frame from Kirkland's. i just finished hanging it in her room. It had a place for 6 pictures so I started with one of you at the baby shower while she was still in your belly. I wish I had one of you holding her but I don't. Jay and I are either signing her up for gymnastics or dance next week. More than likely it will be dance- she is such a entertainer... Cydney starts her junior year at John Carroll Catholic tomorrow. I can't believe how quickly time is going by. We took Cydney to get her license last week too (I know scary huh?) Your baby Smiley's birthday is right around the corner too. We still haven't seen them- but from pictures we have seen they are growing up beautifully- but missing you terribly I'm sure. We finally got your estate settled too (Thank God) Jay and I went thru hell and back fighting to make sure your girls would have something. It feels good to know we worked so hard on it and in the end accomplished our goal. You know the word "can't" isn't in our vocabulary! Our favorite time of year is coming up- football, Labor Day, battle of the bands, classic weekend, Halloween, Thanksgiving, christmas, & New Years... All around the corner- and for the 4th year- your not here to plan it with me. If you ask me - you and I had the holiday planning down pat. Now it's all screwed up and frankly since it's not you that I'm planning it with- well, I guess I lost interest. It was different with you and I doing it and having all of our kids together. I really miss having all of our girls together. When we were going through pictures to put in Tweety's princess frame- Cydney and I found all kinds of pictures of Goose, Smiley and Cydney together playing. Man, I miss you chick. Jay does too. He will NEVER be the same. In losing you- he lost a part of himself too. When I miss you the most I just hold on to the all the good memories. I try to get him to remember the good stuff too. We had plenty of good times together I just wish we had more time to make more memories and share more laughs. Well doll, I love you and miss you sooo much... Till next time my friend.... Christy

05/04/2011-  Hey D-worth... Just stopping in to share what is going on in our lives right now... Saturday Jay is graduating from UAB with his bachalor's in Criminal Justice. I know you are proud. Wrap him up in your Angel wings and let him feel your presence. We both know if you were still here you'd be in the stands with me screaming for him when he walks across that stage. Just like he and I did when you and Trell graduated from J.O. You were always such a huge part of everything we did as a family- I miss that. In 12 days you would have celebrated your 30th birthday. Jay and I are having a ballon release in your honor- but I think I speak for everyone when I say I'd much rather be celebrating it with you - here. We are moving into our 4th year without you and although life has moved on it just still doen't seem right that you are not here with us. I can't tell you how many times a day that I still think of you. I look at Tweety and I see you. That does bring some comfort but at the same time this is not how things should be. Anyhow, I just wanted to drop a line and let you know that I love and miss you... Til our next lifetime... Christy

03/21/2011- Hey Duck... You have been on my mind pretty heavy lately- but then again your never too far from my thoughts... Cydney's sweet 16 was this past weekend- How I wish you were here. You know the month of March is busy for us anyway- between Goose, Momma, Aunt Mattie and Cydney birthdays' we are party central! I can't believe Cydney is almost grown- where does the time go? You and I are pretty lucky Momma's though- we have some beautiful, intelligent little ladies. I wish you were still here to be a part of everything- to have input. I miss planning stuff with you. It's not the same at all. You and I could plan stuff without any issues- plus we thought enough along the same lines that our ideas didn't clash... How many in-laws you know that get along that well? Not many...  When I was planning Cydney's party I kept thinking about what all you would have helped me with... I missed the girls being there too. They would have had a blast! We rented out the Trussville Civic Center and had one of 95.7 Jamz DJ's host the party. Cydney had a 80's theme party- and she looked awesome. The hall looked like it had been hosed down in pepto bismol. LOL! It turned out pretty good- but you and your girls absence was definately noted. Well friend- I'm at work so I gotta run! I just had a few thought I wanted to share. Love and miss yah much! Til next time. Christy 

03/08/2011- Happy Birthday Goose! Wow, time sure does fly. I can't believe you're 10 years old today! We are so proud of the beautiful young lady you are becoming even if we have to witness it from a distance. Just know that we are thinking of you and Smiley, we love you both VERY VERY MUCH! Our love for you guys will never change. I know your Momma is smiling down at her beautiful ladies, her girls.  Happy Birthday babydoll! We love you! Love Alantis, Your Gannies, Pop, Unckey Jay, Christy, Cydney, Brittani & Unckey Trell,

08/18/2010- Hey lady! I'm just sitting here thinking about you- about everything... Tommorow is Smiley's birthday and I can't help but think about how unfair this whole situation is not only to you- but your girls and... Well, all of us. Whoever said time heals everything- LIED! I just don't get it. I probably will never get it. For me, the question Why? Applies to more than just Kortney's actions.... There are quite a few other's that I have that same why? question for... At the same time- it really doesn't even matter what their answers are- some things are just plain uncalled for. Wrong is just wrong- and garbage is just garbage- even if you try to serve it on a silver platter. I know at some point this will all take a turn for the better. I just wonder how long we have to wait for the turn to take place. All this that is being done now is just plain idiotic. Almost comical- if it wasn't so hurtful. If you think about it- the girls will come find your Momma, Jay and Trell eventually- just for the simple fact that they are going to want to know about thier Momma and who better to tell them than those three people. The people that remained in your life consistantly. The people that you really shared your life with.  I know your looking down - disgusted. So are we. One thing that links US all together.... The name PRUITT... One of my last memories of you is from the wee hours of the morning before you left us- when we were through whoopin Jay and Brian playing cards (like we had been all night) You gave me pound and said "that's how them Pruitt women do it!" Your right this is how WE do it- and I got your back Duck. Til the end of my time here. I got you! (((hugs)) I miss you SOOO much man. UNDERSTAND ME!

 

 

06/26/2010- Hey Chick! I know it's been a minute since I have written to you. So much has happened. I wonder when all the drama will end? I'm sick of it that's for sure. Games are still being played. Your older girls are still being used as pawns and it doesn't look like that is going to change. It's breaking your Mom's heart. She doesn't get to talk to them for real (as if losing you wasn't enough). We thought that things were turning around but sadly we were mistaken. You would think that a human with any kind of compassion in their hearts would not cause this family an ounce more of pain or discomfort. I think we have had more than our fair share since you were murdered. Anyhow, on a better note... Tweety is just growing. She is so intelligent. Really she is. I read to her every day. She loves to snuggle and have story time. I even make up stories about Queen Tricey and her three princesses. Right now we are in the middle of teaching her spanish. It is easier to teach her now than later. We may even send her to Greek school at Holy Trinity. I wish you were here... I know that's impossible but I can still wish can't I? Tweety looks like your carbon copy. The bigger she gets the more she looks like you. Right now she is sitting here with me acting like she is putting make up on my face (copy cat) LOL! Well my friend- it looks like she isn't going to let me type any more- she is "helping" me type so I will have to continue this convo another day. I love you Duck. We miss every single thing about you. Time hasn't healed a damn thing. (((hugs))) I miss you. STILL.

03/08/2010- Hey my buddy! Well today your oldest girl is turning 9 years old! What a day! I remember the day you had her like it was yesterday! She was soo beautiful!!! You were sooo picky with her! I remember Jay getting her to suck his lip and getting ALL the sugar- you kept fussing and it didn't do a bit of good! Every time you turned your head he snuck one in-( I did too!) Then I remember the day you brought her home! Jay and I were over your house everyday! We were sooo excited to have our first niece! I felt beyond honored that you let me give her, her first bath! I'll never forget that... Goose captured my heart the very first time I laid eyes on her! Do you remember that song she use to sing??? Go Gannies, that's my Christy... Go Christy thats my Gannies!!!! Good times... Good times... I miss your girls... LOTS! As much as I miss you! Keep those pretty wings of yours wrapped around all three of your girls... They still need you! I love you Duck! Happy Birthday Goose!!! We love you!

 01/17/2010~ Hey Friend! I know it has been awile since I have written to you here but you know my heart. Things are still evolving but I think we both know they will never be the same. Your Mom & Trell FINALLY got to see your girls (THANK GOD). Jay and I are still the odd ones out. But thats okay- we both are just estatic that your Momma & Trell gets to see them. I think most of the drama stems from us handeling all of your business that had to be tended to after you passed over. I told Jay in the begining that that is usually what happens... But you have to also think we didn't even get involved until nothing had been done for almost a whole year. We felt like if wasn't nobody else going to step up then we would~ and we did. We both really worked out butts off to make sure that your girls would have something and that your house would not only get rebuilt but stay in the family. So we are satisfied. We accomplished what we set out to do. We miss you so much man. Days just keep passing us by... I stil am waiting for you to call or come by. It's been over 2 years and when I pull up at Momma house I still expect to see your car there... Christmas was cool. I hung a stocking in your memory and had everybody write down some of thier favorite memories of you and we shared tehm when we all gathered for Christmas. I am making keepsake boxes for all your girls that is going to havea copy of those memories and many more along with every picture I can find that has you in it. I've been working on this for awhile but I think the girls will like it.. Did you know I still have the newspaper clipping from where you & Trell graduated?? I guess you can say I save everything!  Tweety is getting so big girl! I hope where you are you can see your girls... She got a little motorized 4 wheeler for Christmas - girl, you have to see your baby ride! My living room has been officially transformed into her personal play ground! She loves for me to read to her. And Girl guess who Jay got her hooked on? Michael Jackson! Baby, she knows him on site! I wonder if Goose and Smiley still like MJ? I remember Jay getting them hooked on MJ too! Tweety knows ALL his songs! We have some of his concerts on dvd and she watches them EVERYDAY! She knows evey single word on those dvd's... Jay got all of our girls loving MJ!!  I remember how much Goose and Smiley use to love Michael... Tweety has dozens of books I put in her "reading wagon" (that's also in my living room). Also, when we are going to bed at night she always wants me to tell her a story So I tell her stories about Queen Trisha and her three princess's... She loves that. She knows who you are. Jay and I both tell her all the time how much you and her sisters love her. All of ya'lls pictures are still up everywhere in our house and she will point to them and knows who they are... Even the tattoo on Jay's arm of you~ she knows that is her Mommy... The bigger she gets the more she looks like you. She and Goose look like the same exact child when we put pics of them at the same age together... From the little pictures we have seen of Goose and Smiley- they both favor you... But Goose man- looks EXACTLY like you (and Jay)... Smiley it seems the bigger she gets the more of your features come out in her~ I kinda think she looks like Trell too... But thats just my opinion. Anyway whoever they look like- your kids are beautiful!!! How could they not be? Just look at thier Momma.... I really hope that one day the divide that is keeping this family the way it is will close up... Maybe it will. I'm hopeful but niether one of us is going to worry anymore. We have both given it over to God and it is in his hands now... Anyway- I love you girl! You are always in my heart and in my thoughts... Til our next lifetime my friend.....

08/27/2009- Hey Chick... I know you probably already know but your Uncle KP passed over to your side this morning... We think he had a stroke in his sleep. I'm just about left speachless- we still aren't even over losing you (like that will really ever happen anyway) but still- KP was getting his life together- I hope you could see from where you are. He got back with the love of his life San 3 months ago. He finally got rid of Angela. His life was really looking up. He was taking good care of himself. He was singing in a group and writing songs. He wasn't hardly drinking- It's the happiest I have EVER seen him. He was still doing what he had to do for Karla. Now this... I think thats kinda crappy- but at the same time I guess some people die without ever knowing happiness- so I guess when you look at it that way you could consider him lucky that he did find happiness in his life. I'm telling you he was SOOO different. He was really a brand new man. It's really hurting everyone that we have lost another family member. You know KP was like you - the life of the party. Everyone is saying how nothing is going to be the same- well for me that started the day we lost you. Nothing will ever be the same. Wrap YOUR Ladies, Karla, Momma, Uncle Curtis, Aunt Mattie, Jay, Trell, Wan, San, Tank, Nokie, Peach, Shun and even Angela in your angel wings- let them feel not only your presence but KP presence too- let them know he made it ok and that he is over there with you singing hi sheart out having the time of his life. I love you Duck- Til nextime my friend...... 

8/25/2009 Hey D-worth... 21 months and 1 day you have been absent from our lives- but not from our hearts. How I miss your laughter - man... I don't think I am ever going to get to a point where I am at peace with you not being here. I thought I would as time went on- but I was fooling myself. I know that we are not the first family to lose someone like this nor are we the last - but that doesn't make things for us any easier... You and your girls hold such a special place in my heart that belongs only to you all. I miss Goose and Smiley so much it's unreal. I look at Tweety and I just want to protect her from every hurtful thing in this world. I feel like I am failing because we can't seem to get things straightened out with Goose and Smiley. I know you want your girls to be close and so do we... But our hands are tied. All your girls deserve better than this. They don't deserve to have to go thru this. It must be agony for them- I know they miss you soooo much. I can't even fathom what it must be like for them. Nothing in this world can replace you. Those are YOUR ladies. Always have been and ALWAYS will be. Atleast Jay and I have Tweety and she is gonna be fine- I PROMISE. I wish you were here- none of this would be going on and we could be the same content family we were before Kortney took you from us. The outsiders would still be on the outside being feed with a long handled spoon- (where they belong). And we would be discussing which UAB game we getting ready to go to and what our girls are going to wear for Halloween. How I wish this was reality. Losing you has really put our lives in perspective. I understand now- make the most of each moment, always tell someone you love them before you leave- it may be your last goodbye. My last words to you were " Alright - I'll see you tomorrow- my bad later this afternoon" . We all know later didn't come. I was so blind to the fact that you could lose someone that suddenly. I always expected to be able to "see you later" yet forgot how fragile a life is. Even when you are in the best of health that doesn't guarentee that you will live a long life or be here in the next moment. So many people lose sight of that. I lost sight of that fact. Maybe that leaves us all with a little paing of guilt that had we known what was going to transpire- we would have stopped Kortney. Jay wanted him out of your life back when we took the girls trick-or-treating in 2007 - Jay was going to handle Kortney then- but you told him not to - to just let it go , you would handle it your way. I wish Jay would have just went ahead and handled that little bit and let you be mad at him for a few days and got over it. You would still be here in our lives and I would be talking to you instead of typing this journal entry. Regrets, regrets, regrets- I guess life is full of them. I just miss you chick. I miss having you in our lives. I miss living life not knowing this kind of pain and rage that we are left with in your absence. I love you and will always carry you in my heart- til our next lifetime my buddy...

08/19/2009- Part 2- Wow Duck- I swear some people are selfish jerks!  Jay took your Momma to Goose and Smiley's school today. Well when they first got there they were in the middle of testing so they asked that they come back after lunch. So when they went back to give Smiley her birthday stuff they were told that they are not allowed to see the girls! I hope that the people responsible for this crap burn for that mess.... What harm could it possibly do to have a Grandparent and Uncle give a child thier birthday present and tell them they are loved? That side has that opportunity with Tweety- so why the HELL are we not given that same opportunity with Goose and Smiley? I mean seriously! Get a freakin clue already! Just devastating.... I just can't wait until the shoe is on the other foot! Like your Uncle use to say - "It's not funny when the rabbit has the gun". I know what it is for real- everyone KNOWS that your girls have always been closer to your Momma, Jay, Trell, and Cydney. When you were alive your girls were ALWAYS around your Momma, Jay, Trell, Cydney and myself. Now Cydney have to ask when we drop Tweety off if it's okay to see Goose and Smiley- that's b/s she never had to ask before. I hope that karma come right back around and bite everyone involved with keeping the girls from us. We are so sick of the games being played. So, not having them around us means - what? That they stop being family to us or stop being loved? Nah, buddy we still love them and we are still going to be here for them no matter what and babay when they come of age - watch out because if they don't come find us we will come find them. So it's inevitable that we will be a part of their lives. Even if we have to wait a few years- every day that passes is a day closer to when we can see your ladies. Jay and I even saved alot of things for them from the house- even some things of yours to give to them. See at our house your pictures continue to hang on our wall (as do Goose and Smiley's)- we are going to tell them whatever they want to know about you, we are going to share with them your memory and the love you have for them. We will make sure you are not erased from their lives as we will also make sure that we are not erased from their lives. This crap that is being pulled is only temporary. Goose - Smiley when you find this site girls- just know we tried and when your old enough come find us- our doors are always open for you both. We will continue to fight to see you. I pray with all my heart that this whole situation is resolved before you are old enough to make your own decisions. If not, remember like I said every day that passes is a day closer to the day you can make the decision for yourself.  We love you both and you have no idea how our hearts are breaking without you both in our lives... Duck, do what you can from up there - I know this has got to have you 38 hot- and those jerks know it.

 

 08/19/2009- I know you are smiling down today as your baby girl YaYa turns 7... Time is moving so fast- and your girls are just growing... I hope you are close today... I know we wont get to see Smiley today but I want her to know it's not because we don't want to be there - it's because we're not "allowed". I hate missing milestones in their lives (as we all do). Before you died we never missed a moment in thier lives... Smiley, baby if and when you find this site I want you to know how much your Gannies, Tweety, Uncle Jay, Uncle Trell, Myself, Cydney and the rest of your family on this side love and misses you and Goose. We hate that we have been cut out of your lives. When you are old enough, come find us we will never be far. We have so much love here waiting for you two. Never think we have forgotten you and Goose because that just isn't so. We love you two with all of our hearts. Duck, we are doing our best to try and get this situation taken care of- but it just isn't happening. I hope that Tweety got to be around her sister's these past 2 weeks that she hasn't been home. I doubt it since the girls are in school. I know you are pissed man- but no worries a change is coming soon. We just want Goose, Smiley and Tweety to be as close as possible- no matter who doesn't like it. Just wait til Jay becomes an Attorney- we are already working on new laws to go on the legislative schedule (a few are named after you).  Jay got his associates degree last weekend- he said that one is in your honor. I agree! I know how proud you are of him- you always have been proud wherever he was concerned. Wrap your girls and the rest of us in your wings and hold us tight. Let your ladies feel your presence all around them today. We love and miss you Duck. Happy Birthday Smiley! We love you!

08/14/2009- Hey Ms. Lady! Just doing my normal check in. This week has gone by so fast- time in general has since you have been gone. I miss your sense of humor and your big mouth! LoL! Jay has one of those too- so at least I know where you got it from! :0) You are never far from my thoughts and I wonder what your doing now- I wonder what it is like for you now? I wonder if you are with MaDear and Uncle Derrick? If you are happy? If you are comfortable? If your spirit is near us? As you can see I have many questions? I just wish there was a way for us to check on you and see how you are doing... The not knowing leaves your mind wondering... Well chick I gotta run- I just wanted you to know that I love you and I was thinking of you... And your beautiful smile... Til next time my friend..

8/10/2009- Hey Duck... I just wanted to stop by for a minute. We are really missing you right now. (like that's going to change...) Anyhow, we had your Momma and Pop 25 year anniversary party at your house last night. It was very bittersweet being in your home without you and your girls there. I think everyone still had a nice time but you were not far from anyone's thoughts that for sure! You could tell it was weighing in on Jay... For me no matter how loud the music was, no matter how loud the laughter was- there was still a silence in your house. Your laughter was missing- your voice was missing and it was very noticiable. Hell my card partner was missing! You know how we always did... I miss you so much dawg- There is just no replacing you. Being there in your house without you just doesn't sit well with me.  I kept seeing kids playing, running in and out- yet your girls weren't there. I kept expecting to see your face - even though I know that wasn't going to happen - I guess I just felt like it should. I went to Fred's last night and got Tweety a book and on my way there I passed the new Zaxby's in Hueytown- That cut like a knife- That was going to be your store. I know how excited and proud you would have been. It opens August 24th... I hate that number by the way- 24... I always will. Just like I will always hate the name Kortney - no matter how it is spelled. I really thought by now we would adapt to life without you. We just can't- none of us can. I don't even know how to go back to being content- I'm not content within our family without you here with us - without Goose and Smiley- the void that is left is just too much to bear... I have NEVER hurt so much - I have NEVER missed someone the way I miss you. And if I feel like I feel - I can't even begin to compare or even act like I understand what your girls, Jay, Trell or your Momma are going thru. On a better note- I registered Cydney for high school today and she is in the band ! Playing what? O yeah you know the clairinet! Just like someone else I know... Hmmm, wonder who? O yeah that would be you, right? She is trying out for volleyball too. I know you would have been so excited for her and would have came to some of her games. Well chick I am at work so I gotta run. i just wanted you to know that your are with me always- I carry your memory in my heart. I will NEVER - NEVER forget you - whats important to you - i will never let you down. Like I said I got your back inthis life and the next... I love you man! I hope you are resting comfortably.

07/22/2009- Hey Chick! I know it's been a long time since I've posted- but don't think that you are not on my mind... Things are ok- I guess your absence is ever present and that part of life we are just going to have to learn to live with- no matter how hard it is. Cydney is getting ready for her first year of high school (sniff) . She is going to be in the band- you know she already plays the clairinet just like you did. I was looking at the calander for the Classic parade this year- it's on Halloween. You know I'm taking Cydney and Tweety. Last year Tweety was to little to have her out there- but babay- not this year! Little things like that- that I know you would have had her be a part of I am going to keep going. I got you Duck- The bigger Tweety gets the more she looks and acts like you. She really is your carbon copy. She is beautiful!  Jay is getting ready to graduate which is going to be bittersweet because you know you would have been there to support and congradulate him. He pushes on because of you. His law degree will be in your honor. I know you are proud... You always were where he was concerned (and vice versa). By the way they had groundbreaking on the dome stadium yesterday. That kind of got Jay down a little because you know you two were talking about how you all - you, Jay and Trell was going to be on the 50 yard line... But because of that jerk's actions you won't get to see it... I miss you so much Tricey... Not just for myself- but for the girls- your Momma- Jay - Trell and Cydney- man it's not suppose to be like this. You are suppose to be here with us... You would trip if you saw how much life without you has changed the face of your family- and some friends too... Sh*! just isn't the same... PERIOD. It won't ever be like it was before and that's such ashame... I don't even think you really know how many lives you touched and what a difference you made in all of our lives- I think some of us didn't really realize what a huge role you played in keeping us all together until we lost you. Now your Momma side of the family- losing you has definately brought us alot closer- you are not forgotten and are mentioned all the time. We will never forget and will never be at peace with what happened to you- I think all of us on that side will agree that we are coping the best way we know how- but we are far from ok with it. So many people have so much love and respect for you - I hope you can feel it where you are- there is still so much love here for you - and we are holding on to your memory - for when we are missing you the most - your memory brings us comfort. I just wish with all my heart we had the opportunity to make more unforgetable memories together. I love you my friend.. Until next time Duck... I'm missing you... See you this weekend... P.S. I almost forgot to tell you what happened weekend before last (unless you already know) Girl, I came by your resting place to clean up and weedeat - How about I got locked in the cemetary (on Saturday none the less). We had to call the police, the fire dept, and finally the guy over at A.G. Smith and Gaston to come open the gate! Jay was laughing his but off- he told the police to hold me there so he could go back to Trussville and get the camcorder... Everybody there was cracking up (except for me because I was on the other side of the fence)... I know you would be cracking on me right now... I just wanted to share that with you... So you know from now on I'm coming out there early in the day- right? LoL!! :0)

07/03/2009-  Hey my friend! Last Sunday we bought Tweety a pool, She LOVES it! She was sooo cute- We got her some floats and some pool toys- she didn't want to get out! She climbed out to bring me something and I asked her did she want to go inside- She said no no and ran back and got back in the pool.. (too cute!) We are having 4th of July at your house- I am going to buy some fireworks just for you... It's times like this that really just make your absence so real... I miss planning stuff with you and our girls... But I do believe that there is life after death and I believe that when I cross over you will be there... But that is a topic for another time... Your baby is growing soo fast- I know you have to be smiling because she is just doing the cutest things! We have been watching all of our Michael Jackson dvd's and Cydney and Tweety just love Thriller- if you ask Tweety what does Michael say - she says gggrrrrrr and claws her hands like a little monster (like she really scaring someone- little self) You remember how Goose and Smiley use to say bubblegum (or should I say gubblebum? LoL!!) Well Tweety calls is dubadum!! Jay and I both get ALL the suga when she says that- we just can't help ourselves! Jay loves to hear her say ears (eeyaohs)... I think that is his favorite right now. I like to hear her say elbow... She is soo smart! Your Momma said she is a old spirit- just like we use to say about Smiley. Those two girls have been here before! It's funny because it's like Tweety looks like Goose - but her attitude- Babay.... That is Smiley! Anyhow, I'll catch up with you this weekend- I got to come out there and clean up for sure... Well I love you Duck- I'll see you tomorrow...

 

 

 

 

 

06/22/2009- Well Duck as they say you take one step forward and two steps back- Cydney asked to see Goose and Smiley for a minute Friday and was told no... I don't see why Cydney has to be subjected to these games- she is still a child too and has been unwillingly dragged into the middle of something she had nothing to do with. On top of that what is so stupid - them doing that only hurts the kids not Jay or myself- Why would they continue to hurt Cydney? like the little 5 minutes that she would get to hug them and see them would hurt anyone... I already told her not to say anything that would cause a problem. Just tell them she loves them- and that is exactly what she did. I can't believe even after Ms. Williford spoke with Harvey and told him directly had it not been for both me and your brother that the girls wouldn't be getting anything. That we were the ones doing the leg work to make sure there were funds in the estate to distribute to them... It's cool though- I promise you Jay and I both have a plan- I just hate that it's going to take us doing something like that - when this could all be made so easy... From what she said evryone is upset about Trell getting your house- my take on that is - SO!!!! We got the house out of forclosure and Trell is paying for it- Had we not done that your house would have been forclosed on and would still be sitting there in the state Kortney left it in. How can you be mad about something that you didn't even try to make an effort to stop? From what we were told when they found out that the house wouldn't be free and clear and just handed to them - no one on that side was interested any longer- they just wanted to get something for nothing. I remember the attorney telling us that when they were told they would have to assume the mortgage and pay for it while the house was being repaired they hung up on the attorney- and now their mad?  What? Because we saved your house and kept it in the family? Hell truth be told you would have wanted Trell to do exactly what was done. I guess that is just one more way that we have put you and your girls first. Atleast now when they get older they will be able to see their home, rebuilt, cared for and will be able to come over when ever they want to. They could now- I know Tweety gets to go all the time. Goose and Smiley could too if they were allowed. At some point they will be old enough to make that decision on their own and I think we all know that day is fast approaching. It may seem like a long time now- but as each day passes it is a day closer to when this whole mess will be out of everybody's hands and the girls can make their own decisions. Just like with Uncle Curtis and Yolonda. Look at how much Yolonda resents her Grandma from keeping her from her Daddy- I'll never forget the day she turned 18 she left and went to her Daddy. We will continue to do our part where Tweety is concerned- that's all we can do for now. We will continue to keep our promises to you -as always... We really are trying Duck- and we wont stop until all this is corrected and how you would have wanted it. I can't tell what day that will be just know that day is coming and when it does I know that will bring your spirit some peace. I love you chick- I'll be back this weekend with Twety and Cydney... I got you - I promise. All of us will continue to do right by you - Momma, Jay, Trell, Cydney and myself... You continue to live on thru your girls and right here in our hearts... Forever missing you - Christy  

06/16/2009- Hey Duck, last night I was just looking at the last picture taken of you just a few hours before you became an Angel... It made me think of how the time has past so quickly... It's like the longer you are absent- the more I miss you. It's like the time that has past feels like a lifetime but the pain left behind feels like you just left. I am watching your baby grow - she is so amazing- I hope where you are you can see... It makes me wonder how will we ever be able to let her really know what a great mother you are? I know we will tell her- but will she ever really get it? I know Jay and I will do our best- but mear words just don't seem to be enough- I wish she could experience a first hand a relationship with you... I just don't see how anything we tell her could compensate for the loss of having you here with her... We love her so much- she is just the sweetest, funniest little character- her personality is so much like Smiley's - she really thinks she is tuff! So I guess you got 2 boys and a girl! LoL! We always use to say Smiley was your boy! We see you thru her...I think it is amazing that all your girls are so much alike in so many ways even though they are being raised in 2 seperate households. Tweety's little feet look just like yours- the exact same! I was looking thru my pics and I have one from a long time ago that Cydney took of just your feet- Jay knew instantly who's feet they were! Man I miss you Duck- I can't stand you not being here... Sending you hugs- and all our love- til our next lifetime my friend- P.S. Pop's dad died yesterday- so send him a little extra comfort- I know he needs it...

06/05/2009- Wow, Duck- I had to come here and tell you what happened! Cydney got to see Goose and Smiley today! :0) She is so happy! I can't believe after all this time she was allowed to see them! I am so excited for her- I know how much that 5 minutes with them meant to her. I just want all of our girls to be close like they were before all this happened. I hope this is the first step towords healing the gap that is keeping our family divided. It doesn't just hurt your girls- it hurts all of us being seperated into two sides. Cydney got in the car and cried all the way home- she was just balling her eyes out. I haven't seen my baby cry like that since you left us. She was telling me how big they have gotten and how pretty they are (they come by that honest- seeing how you are their Momma) Cydney said your girls are cheerleaders- I hope we get a chance to see them cheer one day... I know you are just smiling right now- I know it's a small step- but atleast it's going in the right direction. Your Momma, Trell and Pop was with me waiting outside. You could see the hurt on your Momma face being that close to your girls yet not being able to hold them and tell that she loves them too. Like I said it's a small step - I hope that Harvey will allow us all at some point to see them ... All we want to do is love them and support them in all that they do. Jay loves your girls beyond measure- and you know this. He just wants to be the Uncle Jay he has been from the beginning. Losing you has just killed his soul. I know from watching him with Tweety that your children are his comfort. In them he is able to see you and although it is not a replacement for you it brings his soul comfort in seeing you through them. I keep praying that at some point that Harvey and Jay will talk man to man. Because so much has been said and twisted that they really need to talk it out intead of having 3rd parties involved. I think that given the chance they could staighten it out by themselves. I don't think Harvey realizes that Jay really does like him and both of us still consider him our brother-n-law- even after you brought Kortney around we still felt that way because we both knew your heart was still with Harvey - I remember you telling me that the night you had Tweety. Hell, we thought the reason we didn't like Kortney was just simply because he wasn't Harvey- Jay and I both said that-. However, I don't think Harvey is aware of how all of us feel about him- if given the opportunity we would tell him. Jay just didn't want him screaming and cussing at me and Momma- but that all goes back to other family members keeping up mess. I wonder if Harvey even knows that Jay and I were the ones that made it a point to call Harvey to come get his girls that night?  Everyone else said not to call him- Jay said no that Goose and Smiley needed to be with their Daddy- and that we were going to get in touch with him.  The same people that didn't want us to call him are the same ones buzzing in his ear with all the drama (or was). Anyhow it is going to take both of them opening the door and both being willing to listen. I think had so many people not been involved in stirring up so much mess-that it would be obvious Jay just wanted to help in any way he could. I know this whole process of events has taught us alot.  As you know with Jay if anyone wants to know anything all they have to do is ask- he will tell them the truth - now wiether or not they will want to hear the answer is a whole other story! LoL! Well chick- all I can do is keep praying that God will work this out. I was just so excited that Cydney got to see your girls I had to tell you. Love yah!

06/03/2009-Hey Duck! Jay and I are just about done getting your estate taken care of.  It's funny how no one else has been concerned with what the girls will be left with but by Jay and I taking care of it- those same inconsiderate (sh*t starting) people want to say we are trying to take from the girls. That really just pisses me off. We would never do that. In fact had we not pushed forward and worked with the estate attorney the girls would have been left with absolutely nothing. If anything we have sacrificed to get this done. If they only knew how much work I have missed. We had the house deeded over to Trell because you still owed a mortgage on it and the insurance company would only either pay for the repairs or pay off the mortgage. By keeping the house in the estate it created a huge debt and the girls would not have anything. So, by me working in the mortgage buisness I had the deed transfered into Trell's name so he could pick up the mortgage payments and stop the forclosure. That means to other that don't seem to understand- TRELL PURCHASED (PAID FOR) THE HOUSE! That way not only did the house get to stay in the family but when the girls get older they can still see thier home. Then I called the insurace company to find out how much coverage you had on your personal property (now mind you this is almost 8 months into this- no one had tried to find out) I had to go in your house thru all the soot, mold and mildew (Cydney helped) and list every single thing you owned and I mean everything. It was the most difficult thing I have ever had to do. I absolutely lost it when I had to go thru the kitchen and the Thankgiving dinner that you, Momma and I put together was still on the table. I will NEVER forget that moment . Then when Cydney and I had to go downstairs- it just made me sick to my stomach- but I knew I had to push forward for your girls and for you, because I knew it was to much for for Momma, Jay or Trell to handle. Also, the estate attorney told us who called her and asked if they could have the house when she told them they would have to pick up the mortgage they hung up in her face... Greedy bastards- those are the ones that are trying to get something for nothing but pointing their finger this way. Truth be told our house, our furniture, our cars, and our lifestyle is exactly the same as it was before you died (with the exception of all the attorney fee's that we had to pay). So you tell me who is the culpret here??? I know Duck- I'm shaking it off playa! But it's high time that everyone know whats really up. I hope when we go to court to settle the estate that Ms. Williford will tell Harvey all the work we did trying to preserve something for your ladies. Maybe then he will realize that we would never do anything like that and our only concern this whole time has been for your girls well being. We love them with everything we have and are dying on the inside without being able to have a relationship with them. When Cydney and I were going thru everything we were able to save your leather jackets and a few of your purses- it took a couple of weeks to get them cleaned and free of soot and the smoke smell but I have put them put up for when your girls get older. I also found alot of disposable camera's that I had developed. I found Goose and Smiley's ultrasounds, some of the teeth they lost, and several other things (awards and trophies) that I am keeping for them to have when they are older. We still have all your pictures up along with Goose and Smiley's. Tweety is so cute we have showed her each pic - she knows who everyone is. She will point and say Iyana or Nya. She points at Jay's tattoo of you and says Momma... I wish more than anything that Tweety could spend more time with her sisters- it is so important to us that they have a close bond. I know we are tired of that fake front that has been put up like Tweety get to see her sisters everytime she over there- We know better... I think it is so sad... I hate that your wishes aren't honored. I hate that we have been thrown into the middle of something when we haven't done anything to deserve it. I hate how the truth has been twisted into bullsh*t. It's hard enough dealing with losing you. We deal with that pain everyday- when seemingly everyone else has moved on and forgotten. Not us though. Never us. Truth always comes to the light eventually. I just wish it would hurry up! Cydney misses Goose and Smiley so much. I don't think anyone has considered her feelings thru all this. She smiles and trys to not show her pain but I'm her Momma she tells me everything. My baby misses you so much she thinks about you and talks to me about you and the girls all the time. She goes with me evry weekend to your grave site and helps me clean it up. She prays for you and the girls all the time. It is a beautiful thing to witness her love for you and your girls. It makes me so proud to be the Mother of such a compassionate soul. I couldn't believe she wanted to help me when I had to go into your house and make that list. It was difficult for me and I am an adult. So I can only imagine how she felt. Wow, sometimes talking to you on here lifts alot of stress off of me. Damn Duck- I have never missed anyone the way I miss you. I don't think I realized what a huge part of my life you played a part in until you were no longer in it. I hate that I realized that too late. But I am comforted in knowing that you know how much I care for you. I am so thankful I spent the night with you at the hospital the day you had Tweety. I am so thankful that I told you then that I love you like my own little sister and that I would do anything for you. I will never let you down! Not ever! I miss you in ways I can't even fully explain. Memories of you laughter and your smile do bring me a bit of joy that remains bittersweet because it is only in memory that I can see your smile. Wrap your ladies, Momma, Jay and Trell in your wings and hold them tight. It has been 19 long months without you. Things still haven't got any easier. Not a single day goes by that you are not in our thoughts. I love you man... Until our next lifetime my friend. I love you....

 

05/30/2009- Hey Duck! I just wanted to stop by and let you know Tweety used the potty for the first time this morning! She went TeeTee ont he pot! I just thought you would want to know! Love yah! 

05/28/2009- Hey Lady! Can you believe your niece is going to be in high school this fall? I hope you were with us Tuesday and got to see her graduation (sniff)- I'm not quite sure how it works on your side but I do believe that your spirit is with us. Cydney was so beautiful! We took her and got her hair crimped and got her nails and toes done. Her dress was soooo pretty! Momma, Pop, Uncle Curtis, KP, my Dad, Grandma and my Aunt came. Plus some of Cyneys friends that are already over at John Carroll came- I was thinking about your graduation how you and Trell were just cheesing ear to ear... How when they called ya'lls names how loud we were screaming - only 4 more years and we will be doing that with Cydney. Matter of fact Cydney's last year will be Tweety's 1st year! We get to start all over! I wouldn't trade it for the world ! We got Tweety a kitchen and a beauty shop and she LOVES them! She really loves the kitchen though- I had to bring it into the living room because she plays with it so much. Your baby girl is just growing...She is sooo smart (thats a little old woman there- she has been here before- Jay says she is you)- she is really trying to talk and it is precious! We got her a little pink potty and have been working on her using it- she is the only one in her class that has already started potty training so they moved her up to the Toddler 2 class(sniff).  We are getting ready to make her first dentist appointment (I can't wait to see how that goes!) We have been taking really good care of her teeth- she has been brushing them on her own since she was 10 months. But Jay and I have been brushing her teeth since she got her first one. It is so cute to watch, she knows how to spit it out, rinse her mouth and wipe her face with the towel...Jay and I talk about how much she reminds us of Smiley- thinking she tuff! Babay- Tweety can fight! Little self... I guess she came by the Pruitt temper honest though!! LoL!! Look at you , Jay and Trell- ya'll got some tempers on ya'll (38 hot) LoL! You took Jay saying!!! He loved it when you copied him though. There is some other stuff going on that I won't tell you about here - I 'll save that for the weekend when I come to see you. I will tell it looks like we have a new addition to the family... I'm excited but I hate that you are not here to see it... I would love to hear your take on everything that is going on currently- especially where I am concerned. I kinda already know what you would say - so I am shaking that shit off playa! Betta yet I'm going to copy your car tag UNVME2 (LoL) I'm not going to let anyone cause a rift between me and my family. I am here to stay- period. Even before we got married. You know that better than anyone!  Well Chick I gotta run- I am at work but I will see yout his weekend- I love you - Mmmwwwahhh!

05/09/2009- Hey Duck! I just wanted to stop by early to wish you a Happy Mother's Day! I brought you some flowers and a ballon from Tweety... I hope you like them... I was going to make it from all 3 of your girls- but I figured they will be coming by with their own stuff that they made for you and I didn't want to confuse them or anything... I hate always having to think twice before I do something like that- I'm doing it for you and your ladies- I shouldn't have to stop and "think" about it... I swear- sometimes people make things more difficult than they have to be! Anyway, Tweety made you a card at daycare- I just haven't had time to hook up the scanner to the laptop to upload it. I promise I will never leave you out. Whenever she makes something or does something- I am going to share it with you. Anyhow, I will do it next weekend when I have a second. Also, I got your Momma a card from you- I am going to ask Jay if it is okay before I give it to her... I just want you to be included. You continue to be a vital everday presence in my life and I have to include you... I just can't leave you out- and I wont. I may not get to have you here in your Earthly body but I know your spirit continues to surround us... Thats just how you are - you never will leave the ones you love... I promise as long as I have breath in my body I will remember you, honor you and include you in all that we do. Your my family and I love you man... Til I get to the other side... Christy

 

05/04/2009- Hey Lady... Just stopping by... Mother's day is right around the corner and I was thinking of you. I stopped by Sunday and tidied up your site. I hate that you are not here to celebrate Mother's Day with us. I hope your girls are able to remember what a awesome Mother you are without us even having to tell them. I know with Tweety we will only be able to tell her- but Goose and Smiley should have some recollection of their own. (I hope) With all the crappy parents in the World I will never understand how they are still here yet you are not... Crazy, huh? Sunday we will be celebrating you as a Mother too- I refuse to leave you out. We love you Duck- you are forever in our hearts and always on our mind. We miss you so much. Sending you angel (((hugs))) above... Love- C 

4/30/2009-The beauty of your spirit continues to touch our lives. You are one of those special people in this world that even after your gone you continue to live on in the hearts of many. I am one of those fortunate few to be priviliged enough to carry your memory in my heart. Your smile and laughter still grace my mind. I miss you every day- even the happy memories come with pain. I know you are with God and that should bring some comfort- but it doesn't I want you here with us. Sounds selfish, huh? I can't help it- thats the truth. I now know some voids in our life can be to big to fill- life without you is definately that- a huge void. I can't change what happened- how I wish I could. I just wish there was some better way to deal with this. I love you Duck- I am just frustrated with your absence. I always will be... I love you man! Love , Christy...

04/27/2009- Hey D-Worth... More time has passed without you and I am still waiting for this to get better- it just doesn't. I don't think there is ever going to be a time when living without you will be okay... Actually I don't think- I know. I am so stressed with what is going on in my life right now, Jay is here for me as always- just missing his backup which is you... It seems as if now that the trial is over- everyone is "moving on" with the exception of Momma, Jay, Trell, Cydney and myself. Your absence cuts like a knife- it hurts. I have now officially divided my life into two parts- Life before your death and life after... Normal isn't even in my vocabulary anymore and I doubt it ever will be again. There is not and has not been a day that I don't think of you probably a thousand times... I know I told you a million times while you where here that I felt like you were my own little sister- after losing you I realize how true that statement was and is. There is nothing I wouldn't do for you- back then or now. How I wish I could have somehow protected you. Jay feels the same way... I have finally started talking to God again. My faith is still shaken but I am dealing with it. We haven't been to church in awhile. It's just too hard to walk in those doors without you and ALL your girls. Momma and Jay break down everytime we have gone since you left us. I think I am going to start looking for another church. Spiritually my soul is hungry and I need to find a place we can worship together as family. I really miss going to our church but since it is something that we shared with you - right now the pain is still to raw for everyone so I think it is time to move on. Tweety now says her grace before we eat. She demands (LoL) that we all hold hands while she says amen. I know that has to make you smile. Jay says all the time ho wproud you would be of her. She is so smart! She is defiantely a funny little character thats for sure! I know it is important to you that your ladies be involved in church so I am going to find a good one with a great childrens program that I think you would like. I know you really loved our church so I am going to try to find a similar one. Sorry it has been a minute since I have been here to share with you whats going on... I just miss you so much sometimes that I can't look at these pictures it kills me to see you so alive and happy as you should be right now. Damn Duck- It just was NOT your time to go- I don't care what anyone says- you are suppose to be here with your ladies and us. You had so much more life to live. I hate that bastard for what he did. I will never forgive him. I wish I could inflict the same pain we are left with upon his soul. I love you man... I will forever be missing you.

04/14/2009- Hey my friend... The essence of your spirit surrounds me. Today I smile for you. My existence in this world will always ensure your memory lives on... I miss you so much at times I don't even know how to explain how I feel. But today thoughts of you brought me joy. I can almost hear your laughter and wonder if it is you letting me know your ok... Whatever it is that I'm feeling today- I am finding myself grateful for God bringing you into my life. Thru knowing you , befriending you, loving you and losing you- I have learned some of lifes toughest lessons. I miss you and I am forever thankful for what you have brought into my life and the lessons learned from what I lost when you left. YOU have played one of the most major roles in changing my life and opening my eyes to what is important in this life... I wish you where stillhere to see the impact you have had on everyone... I love you Duck- Your my dawg! Always and Forever! You sis-n-law!!!  

 

04/06/2009- Hey Duck... I always start with "you have been on my mind lately" - when truth be told you are on my mind all the time.  Tweety is 17 months today. I hope where you are you can watch your girls grow. I wonder what life must be like on your side? I guess all of us will know someday.  I thought last week would bring some closure- but it hasn't... We still miss you like crazy... Your house is finally completed and Trell moved in this past weekend. Every victory is bitersweet without you here. Every good thing that happens in our lives comes with guilt and pain that you can not enjoy whatever it is with us. Losing you has definately opened my eyes to how precious and fragile life is. I have also learned that love endures all things, love never dies. Some bonds made here on Earth survive everything- including death. I hope where you are you are comfortable, peaceful, and happy. Sending you angel (((hugs)))- Love, Christy

03/24/2009 Hey D-worth... You're on my mind so heavy today... I thought this was suppose to get easier as time passes- but it doesn't my friend... WE MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU... Some days are better than others- but EACH and EVERY day WITHOUT YOU is STILL PAINFUL- and PAIN FILLED... I NEVER imagined that we would lose you- that thought NEVER crossed my mind... I find it so DAMN UNFAIR that you did not get to live out and enjoy your life. It ANGERS me when I think of all that YOU had planned for YOUR LIFE that you will not get to accomplish- It ANGERS me when I think of YOUR LADIES growing up without their Mother... The magnitude of what we lost 11/24/2007 cannot be measured. Strangers that did not have the priviledge of knowing you could NEVER possibly understand. You effected the lives of EVERYONE fortunate enough to be a part of your life. There are people in this world that you will NEVER recover from losing- you are one of those people. Some people you lose and barely realize their gone- Losing you has effected our EVERYDAY lives. Not a moment in my day passes that you are not in my thoughts. Next week we are going to sentencing. We are suppose to be happy about "getting justice"- let me tell you no matter how we have tried to look at this- The only JUSTICE we would be happy with is if the Judge would somehow have the power to overrule your death sentence and we know that isn't possible. Jay is right - this is a somber victory. I'd much rather lose the case and have you walk in the door- Anyhow- I just really am missing you today- not only for myself- but your daughter's, for your brother's, for your Momma- Witnessing their pain has only increased my own. You never want those you love to hurt- When you hurt someone I love you in turn hurt me... I love you man! You will forever remain in my heart... I will NEVER let go of your memory... Sending you angel (((hugs)))-

03/16/2009- Hey my friend... I have been thinking of you alot here the last few days... Thinking about how unfair life can be. Jay threw Momma a birthday party Saturday. Everyone was there except for you, Goose and Smiley.  We cooked out, listened to music, danced and played cards. Tweety was coloring with Nokie's little girl (Tweety have her own little Dora backpack that I take when we leave and go anywhere- it has her coloring books, crayons, juice, and toys) and Cydney was on the phone (as usual).  I played cards- but I wish you were there to be my partner- you know when we played we was going to be sitting in our seats for awhile! I'll never forget how we whooped Jay and Brian! You already know it's usually me and you or me and Jay as partners... It was cool though... Momma had a ball!  It was good to see her smile. Since you have been gone we all have a hard time truely having a good time because we know we can't share it with you. We know that you would be here celebrating with us and it's painful to be reminded that your absent. Trell will be able to move in the house Friday. It is really pretty- I just hate that you won't be able to enjoy it.Even though it's really Trell's house now- to me it will always be yours. I remember how proud and excited you where when you and Harvey moved in. I also remember how proud you were when you were able to handle it all by yourself after you two split off. I remember how proud and excited you were when you bought new furniture, appliances, light fixtures- whatever it was to make YOUR house look better. I am just glad that we were able to save it and not let what happened to MaDear's house happen to yours... Cydney birthday is tomorrow. Your baby niece will be 14 can you believe that mess! Makes you feel old huh?  I wish you were here to plan her party with me... Well Chick- I gotta run- I am at work and once again on here with you... I love you! We all do - so much- some will never understand how much....

03/08/2009- Hey Duck! I just wanted to stop in and tell you that we know you are smiling down from Heaven as your baby Goose turns 8... We didn't get to see her or talk to her today. However we didn't forget. Cydney is really upset that she didn't get to be with your girls this weekend. It really is ashame that she has been excluded as well- she is just a child and doesn't understand why she is being treated like that... It doesn't matter what anybody says or does that is still their first cousin~ still their blood. The way you, Jay and myself had it your girls always looked at Cydney as their older sister. They will remember... O well- I know one day this will all straighten itself out. I just hate that we have to miss so much of your ladies growing up. We feel cheated~ as I'm sure you do... But like Momma and Jay said ~ the girls will come find us when they get old enough and we will be waiting with open arms...  No one can erase the love we have already instilled in them. Things like that you don't ever forget... Man I wish you were here with us... Sorry I 'm just missing you so much today...

2/22/2009 Wow, tomorrow is almost here... How do you really prepare for something like this? You can't... I know no matter what sentence is handed down it won't be satisfactory... I know some have said they have forgiven Kortney- I just can't understand that- I know I don't have it in me- I know how much we have lost and I know that Tricey's 3 beautiful ladies will grow up without their mother- that right there is enough for me not to forgive him... I see a family torn in 2 because of Kortney's actions- I can't forgive that- I never will... Does this mean I'm not a christian? I don't think so- I do believe that there are some acts in this world that are beyond our forgiveness- this is a prime example... We as a family are suffering EVERY DAY. I guess people need to remember not to do things that they can't take back- that they can't change... As a family we have already been handed a life sentence 11-24-07... We were sentenced to life without Duckworth (Tricey) for those who love her- you know what I mean and for those who don't- think of the person closest to you- that is a part of your everyday life and imagine in a split second they are gone because someone decided to play God... Even then you won't understand not until that thought is a reality and you are walking in our shoes... Please pray for the Pruitt family this week- we are going to need it...</

02/18/2009- Hey Chick! Trial is fast approaching us and emotions are running high... I want Kortney to suffer the same way we are suffering without you. This whole ordeal has put us thru pure Hell on Earth... I am no longer the person that I was prior to 11/24/07. Losing you changed me all the way down to my dna. Losing you has challenged my faith in God, my faith in myself, my faith in people in general. I was always a trusting individual and now I can't say that about myself. I have learned that family doesn't always look out for family- and sometimes the ones you would think would have your best interest at heart are only interested in personal gain. I have learned that our next moment in this life is not promised. I have learned to always tell those i love how much they mean to me before I leave even if it is for a mear moment. I have learned you are never to young to plan for your death. I have learned that you have to take each day as it comes and live every day as if it is your last. I now wake up every morning thankful for just that- waking up to be a part of this world with those I love that day. I ask myself every day- what can I do today to make a positive impact on this world, what legacy can I leave behind for those that love me? Before I was always able to comfort and console those around me when they needed it- now I find myself needing exactly that... I look at those closest to me (Jay, Cydney, Momma,Pop & Trell) and I feel helpless- because I know there is nothing that I can do or say to make it better... I look at what is going on with your ladies and it makes me sick- that anyone would add to your girls grief- isn't losing you enough? Haven't all of us lost enough? As bad as I want to point the finger and blame them for thier actions I can't- because it all comes back to Kortney- I blame him for all of this... My heart just aches for you- that is the only way I know to describe the pain. Even all the good and fun memories of you hurt- because I know that is all we are left with... Every memory is bittersweet... I know some people feel like they can't talk to us about you because they think it will hurt us- what they don't realize is that it hurts worse not to remember you, to speak your name, to think of all the moments that we were fortunate enough to have with you... Every day I think about you probably a thousand times- wiether it's looking at Tweety or listening to a song that reminds me of you, seeing a car like yours or passing someplace we have been together. Sometimes it's just that feeling of "damn" when it's pretty outside and I remember how if we weren't working and you'd call and we would all go to the park and let the kids play together while we cooked, played cards and listened to music. Or those many times over the last 15 months that something was going on that I know I would have shared with you... Those are the things I think about constantly. I can't get over the fact that your life was cut short because of this coward... None of us thought he was the man for you. We felt like you were broken from you previous relationship and that you were settling for someone who 5- 10 years ago wouldn't have even turned your head.  You were a good woman and you were definately worthy of muchmore than what Kortney could have ever offered you. I hate that you lowered your standards... I remember the day you had Tweety and I came back to the hospital that night when I got off work and stayed all night with you- I remember our conversation... We talked about so much that night and I know you had so many plans for your future that now you will never have the opportunity to finish... That night I spent with you is one of the most precious memories I have of you. Just thinking back to that night makes me smile... We talked about anything and everything... I miss that... Jay and I both do... Well I am at work and here I am again - talking to you! I love you Duck- your still my little sister too... Your my dawg! I will always have your back in this life and the next...

 2/15/2009- Jay and I just got back from celebrating his birthday. We talked about you mostly. We stayed at the Embassy Suites (as usual), we went shopping and ate at Outback. We really had a nice time. We laughed and talked about funny things that you used to say and do... It was really weighing heavy on his heart that he didn't get his usual phone call from you at 12:01 like you always did every year to  tease him and wish him a Happy Birthday. Some years you even beat me to the punch! Jay was talking about how you both use to take each other out to breakfast at Shoney's every year... Nothing really can compare to the love and joy that you and he shared... Every memory of you is so precious to him- hell to all of us! We were talking about the first time he introduced me to you and all I could say was " O my Gosh you two look like twins!" and you two were just smiling and laughing saying everybody says that! Then we were talking about when I use to pick you and Shika up from school and ya'll use to beg me to take ya'll over to Ensley High School's band practice. I remember I gave in one time and took ya'll over there and I told ya'll to be back to my car in 30 minutes- (yeah right!) ya'll showed up and hour and a half later! Jay was paging me and I couldn't leave to call him back- you 2 got me in trouble! LoL! Trying to go look at some boys! I miss you being  in our everyday lives- I miss sharing our lives with you.... But I am thankful for the time I had with you-  Nothing or noone can take that away from me. Loving and missing you today as always... Christy

 02/07/2009- Hey my friend... I know it has been a long time since I have been on here- Just everything hit me really hard during the holidays and your first angelversary... I guess the numbness has finally worn off and we are all really starting to realize that your not coming back... That is a hard pill for any of us to swallow... Your house is almost finished and Trell will be moving in soon... We have already said we are going to have the holidays like we use to- we even still have your Christmas tree and are going to put it up... Hopefully the girls will be able to come and be back in their house and see what we have done for them... I just hate that we can't see them or talk to them... We actually missed their birthdays last year, Thanksgiving and Christmas too- no one would answer the phone or call us back- I guess we were not invited- can you believe that ? The ones who have been present at all their special occasions are no longer allowed! We even tried to call and get them to come to Tweety's party... Do you think that happened? No... I wonder what the girls think? I hope they still know how much we love them and that we want more than anything in the world to see them...It breaks our hearts that adults are playing these childish games and really aren't hurting anyone but the girls... I feel like the girls have been thru enough- I just don't understand what would cause us to be erased from their lives...You would think the adults in this situation would want the girls to be surrounded with the people who love them and have ALWAYS been a vital part of their life... Momma can't see them or talk to them- and she kept them almost everyday of their lives, Jay & I can't talk to them or see them and you know we were always around...- Hell your twin brother can't see them or talk to them! Isn't that ludacris? I feel like all the people on that side that are keeping this going should be ashamed of themselves- they know better! They know just how close you Jay and Trell were...Each and every last one of them know what they are doing is not honoring you at all! None of them have any consideration when it comes to your girls- they just want to "control" stuff and keep up mess... You would think that after losing you the way we all did that everyone would put your girls first- and put what you wanted for your girls first... All of them know that they are wrong and know you would have never allowed this to go on...This whole ordeal has really opened our eyes to who is family and who isn't... I can't believe all that has happened in the last 15 months- you would think all this would bring us closer as a family- all it has done is seperate us... You would fall out if you knew about all the lies that have been told... What is even crazier is the ones who were not even a part of your life and never helped you when you needed them (and always had their hand out wanting something from you) are trying to act like they were sooo close to you ... If they only knew what you really thought of them- huh? You know I know! However , I'm not low down enough to tell them...Yet everytime that one of us try to reach out we get slapped in the face... Jay keeps trying though, and everytime he gets the short end of the stick... I know your up there telling JAY that can't isn't in his vocabulary.. (LoL!!) He isn't giving up and neither am I ... I just had to come here and get some of this off my chest... It is so frustrating to have to endure all this drama on top of losing you... Wrap your girls, your momma, and your brothers in your angel wings and hold them tight... Your absence is almost too much to bear sometimes... We love you soo much Duck- words really just cant describe how much... The only peace we are finding is in the fact that we didn't wait until you died to let you know how much we love you. Til our next lifetime-

 

 

01/19/2009   "God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED - To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be". What a powerful statement... We know how true it is- because loving you and losing you has changed the landscape of our lives forever... Missing you as much today as yesterday...

01/02/2009 2009 is here yet you are not... :0(  It's killing us inside- not to be able to share our lives with you anymore... I know no matter how much we pray, how much we love you, miss you and need you we can't bring you back... The numbness is gone and reality is setting in- losing you is so permanent and final... I wish we had an opportunity to appeal to a higher court, a higher God to reverse your sentence... Criminals get that chance- why can't we? In a way your big brother is at peace- he knows that he showed you how much he loves you while you where here... He didn't wait until you died to bring you flowers and cards... He did that while you were alive... I found all the cards that you kept from your birthdays, the girls birthdays, Mother's day, baby showers, all kinds of stuff... The majority where from us (doesn't surprise me) I also found pics from Tweety baby shower... You where just smiling and we were having a ball! You tore up that spagetti I made! Funny- Tweety loves it too! I miss you sooo much Duck... This holiday crap isn't right without you... I feel so helpless- I have always been able to fix things and for once here is something that I can't fix- I can't make it better, I can't replace what is broken... It's a hurtful thing to know no matter what I say or do I can't change what happened that night.... We live with the outcome of that night everyday- not a day goes by that we don't think of you a thousand times, not a day in our lives goes by that we don't speak your name, not a day goes by in our lives that we don't feel the pain that losing you has left us with... I can still hear your voice , your laughter... I try to remember the sound of your voice so it doesn't fade away... I will never allow your memory to fade... Best to believe that! Sending you angel (((hugs))) up above... Missing you like crazy chick!!!

 

12/12/2008  I'm NOT sure where to start. I know me!!!!!!! Once I start, I will NOT quit. From when we were younger, our love formed, our friendship within grew into something many others could only wish and hope for. I know there's NO better sister in the universe. Maybe in my next life-time I'll have the honor of being your brother/friend once again. In a way, I would love to share what we have but once again, my selfishness takes over and I can't seem to let that happpen. I know we don't use the word "Can't" because it's not in our vocabulary but just this one time..... I have to....... It's just NOT fair. It's was suppose to be us 3 like we've talked about many, many times before. You, me, and Trell !!!!!!! We promised....... Your kids need and deserve the mom they have(had). We've been through sooooooo much that others have NO clue or any idea about. We know things that we 3 only share, that we held on to. Others, NOT only siblings were ENVIOUS of our relationship. How we helped, loved, talked, cared, supported each other daily!!!!!!!  What I wouldn't give to turn the hands of time again. The phone call @ 4 that morning KILLS me. I'm empty and numb inside and I've been that way since 11/24/07. Momma, your kids, Trell, and I as well as many other family members and friends were completely cheated....... PERIOD!!!!!!! I haven't been back to your grave sight since the day that I left class. I JUST CAN"T DO IT!!!!!!!    I've tried and tried but I just can NOT bring myself to do it. I JUST CAN'T LET GO!!!!!!!   The memories....... NO ONE can ever take them away. The love....... NO ONE really will ever know just how much we loved each other.  The silence is what hurts like hell...... The fact that you're not here to raise your ladies only makes matters worse for me. I love you more than love itself. Tweety's gonna be fine.... I PROMISE!!!!!!!   I'll NEVER forgive KORTNEY, he's lucky that we did NOT cross paths. Forever and a day loving you, your BIG brother.......

11/24/2008  I feel almost numb as the hours pass by getting ready to mark the one year point of when we lost you... This time last year you and I were playing cards with Jay and "B" - tearing them up and talking trash... Laughing together having a good time... If we had only known that these would be our last few hours with you... If only we knew... I wish  with all my heart that I could change what happened that night... I wish there was something that I could change that would make you still be here with us... The reality of you not being here is a everyday struggle for us... We love you and miss you so much man... Words don't even begin to describe what we are feeling today...

11/21/2008 Hey Chick! For the past few days I've been in court for my friend Saudia's murder trial... We got a guilty verdict today! They found that girl that stabbed her guilty of murder and guilty of assault 1 on her baby Santonio... I will say going thru these past few days with her family really opened my eyes up to what we are getting ready to go thru... It is really going to be rough on us~ but we are going to make sure justice is served for you Duck... I mean that! These past few days have just mentally prepared me for what I need to do to help get your brothers and your Momma ready for whats is coming our way... I'm going to make sure that they are all right - don't worry Duck... I got them! Everyone is on edge as the one year mark is almost upon us... None of us are really ready for that... We still feel like any moment you are going to call or somehow show up... Although we know that moment is never going to come to pass... Our hearts are aching with sadness, loss, and grief as we are again reminded that you aren't here with us... I love you man! You will always be in my heart and forever in my thoughts....

11/06/2008 Hey D-worth... Today is your baby girl's first birthday!! How I wish you were here to be with her today... I know you are watching from heaven and smiling down on her. She looks so much like you it's unreal... I remember rushing to UAB (taking a 3 hour lunch from work) so I could come see my new niece... Little did I know that 18 days later you would be taken away from your girls, your Momma, your brothers, your family, and your friends... I 'm glad I spent so much time with you in those last weeks... We all miss you so much and it's a daily struggle dealing with losing you... Wrap your angel wings around us today as we celebrate you beautiful daughters birthday... Sending you (((hugs))) above...

11/04/2008- Duck we rocked the vote last night! President Obama is now in office! I took Cydney to the Boutwell for the celebration! I wanted her to remember last night and feel like she was a part of it. It was also a harsh reminder that you were not here. I know that you would have went with me. So many things are happening that I know you would be a part of and it kills me that you aren't here. You would have had a ball last night. I got up this morning feeling so patriotic! (I know your laughing at me right now- but I did) Today I feel is a beautiful day in America and I feel proud to be a American. I just wanted to share that with you... I love you Duck!

10/24/2008 11 months have gone by without you. 11 months of silence in so many ways... Dealing with the harsh reality that losing you has left us with is just killing us... Remembering you is easy- living without you is tough... We love you so much Duck....

10/19/2008 You cross my mind daily...... You're in every thought.... memories of you cherished ~ forever in my heart.... Another moment has passed in our lives without you... Another moment of heartache and feeling blue.... Daily reminders of all we have lost.... A mother, sister, daughter, friend and boss... No more phone calls, card games or holidays to keep in touch.... Life without you has changed us so much.... We love you D-worth...

10/14/2008 I look at your pictures here everymorning~ I miss your smile so much Trice... I want to hear your voice so bad... Your brother's miss you so much that the feeling isn't even describable just to say they are simply missing you doesn't even come close to telling you how they feel... Everyday we are reminded of your absence and it's killing all of us... Halloween is coming up I'm sure that is going to be hard for Jay and I both~ we are so use to doing all the family stuff with you and the girls... Last year it was so cute that Cydney and Goose ended up both being dr.'s...LOL!!! Anyway, I got to get back to work... Love you man!</

10/09/2008 What Tricey Has Taught Me... I've learned that you can keep going long after you think you can't.... I've learned that learning to forgive takes a lot of practice.... I've learned that friends can become strangers, and strangers can become friends....  I've learned that some people will never, ever - "get it"....  I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief....  I've learned that your life can be changed in a matter of seconds.... I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon....  I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be the last time you see them....  I've learned that love isn't measured by the amount of time you have with someone....  I've learned that some sorrow is so deep that it has no words. But so is love....<

 09/24/2008 306 days since you left us... 306 days since our lives changed... 306 days yet it seems like yesterday...

09/21/2008 Hey Duck! Just wanted to drop you a line today and let you know we are missing you! Tweety started walking Thursday, she takes 2-3 steps and then gives up and starts crawling... ;) Jay also taught her the cutest thing, he showed her how to wave her hand and tell you "heeeyyyy" ~ too cute! I just wish you where here to see, you should be the one sharing this kind of stuff with us ~ not the other way around! We miss you soooo much man... We miss the girls... We miss how our lives "use" to be~ We miss your phone calls to "let you tell us about so and so..." We miss going the games together, planning the holidays together, taking the kids to CiCi's when they made good grades, we just miss it all... We are thankful for the memories, just somehow that's not enough~ we want you here with us... I think about the conversation we had Halloween night when we took the kids trick~or~treating and I know that you had so much you wanted to accomplish, so much you would have accomplised given the chance. Yet this POS took your life into his hands~ I just can't get over that... You mean the world to us wiether in your earthly body or heavenly spirit~ we love you and we miss you....Sending you angel (((hugs)))....

09/09/2008 Hey LADY!  Can you believe I'm 30 today? I know you are up there getting jokes on me right now...  But I'm still "sharp" !!! Just dropping you a line to let you know that you are on my mind and that I miss you! Sending angel (((hugs))) to you ... Love, Christy .... Pruitt

09/05/2008 287 days since you have been gone... People keep telling me it is suppose to get easier with time... 287 days later it still feels like it did that night... It stings... I look at your pictures and see how vibrant and beautiful you are... I can can still hear your laughter... I think it is so damn unfair that your life was cut short by someone else's actions... You had so much left that you wanted to accomplish- So much you would have accomplished... We miss you sooo much... Losing you has left us with insecurity and definately a different outlook on life itself... Tomorrow is not promised to any of us... So we live each day like there will not be another... We definately love harder and are more forgiving... Missing you today as much as yesterday....

08/27/2008 Missing you today.... Wishing you were here.... Never letting go of memories we now hold so dear.... Teardrops falling like rain in the sky.... As we look into the Heavens asking Why, Why, Why.... Losing you has left us bearing so much grief.... 11/24, we will never again feel peace.... Everday a harsh reminder that your smile we won't see.... Your phone calls are absent, no longer received.... Remembering is easy, reality is tough.... Missing you dearly- we are hurting so much.... You were taken to early, so much life left to live.... Three precious girls to raise, so much love left to give.... Your memory lives on kept safe in our heart.... Each one of them precious with which we will never part.... Waiting for the moment we will reunite.... Our family once again complete.... Angels in flight.....

 

08/13/2008 Whats up man? We are just all lost without you as you can see... I found some videos with you and the girls ... I can't tell you how it felt to see your beautiful smile and hear you laughter again! It just breaks us down... I just wish so hard that any moment we will wake up and all this will turn out to be some crazy nightmare that goes away... You are so dearly missed... I don't think even you knew how much we all thought of you or how much we love you.... You are forever our angel... Until we meet again your memory is forever etched into our souls... Forever missing and loving you...

05/16/2008 Happy Birthday Duckworth!!!! We miss you so much man!!! You know we always call you a few minutes after 12 so we can be the first to wish you and Trell  a Happy Birthday.... You are so dearly missed!!! You are the centerpeice of this family, you just simply cannot ever be replaced... There is only one you... Sending you angel hugs and kisses to you.....</

 

 

 

 

03/01/2008- I came and visited you today, I hope that you know that I was there... I tried to fix things up a bit, since I know how you always liked to be "sharp"... I just want you to know that you are not forgotten, you still are a part of our everyday lives and you still mean so much to us.... To me you are not just a memory, you are a everyday presence in my life and I intend to keep it that way.... Missing you Angel.... Christy

02/29/2008- Today Jay and I got married!!! After 15 years can you believe that? It wasn't the way we had planned it, but never the less I'm a "Pruitt" now... I wish you were here, that way you could give Jay hell about being "married" LOL !!! I have been thinking about you since late last night, and I hope you make your presence known to Jay today... I know it's eating him up that you are not here to share this day with him, you are such a big part of him... We miss you so dearly, I try to keep you inlcuded in everything we do... The silence is the only realization that your gone, I keep waiting for the phone to ring and hear you say " What up Christy, where Jay?"...  It still doesn't seem real... You are always in my thoughts everyday, I miss you and I love you.... Christy .... Pruitt  

02/14/2008- Today was your brother Jay's birthday... We spent most of it talking about you... I made sure that he got a card from you this morning. ( I almost wish  I didn't because it broke him down). But like I told him- you are still a part of us, I'm not willing to forget... Neither is Jay , Trell, or Momma... So after I said that , Jay said I was right and he's glad that I am doing my best to keep you included... This weekend I'm going to take him to breakfast at Shoney's like you did EVERY year.  I know I'm doing what is right by you... I keep feeling you push me to do these things... You don't have to push, I'm going to take care of it, I promise.... Better yet as you, Jay and Trell say "On tha blood". I mean it Duck... You are still a part of us... We will NEVER , NEVER, FORGET!!! I love you man...

Happy Valentines! Christy

02/12/2008- I've been thinking of you today, your presence is strong right now... I feel you in everything I do , pushing me to take care of what needs to be done. I want you to know I'm doing my best. We tell Tweety (Alantis) everyday how much you love her, and that your her angel. She is so beautiful, she looks so much like you, and Goose (Anya)... Jay and Trell call her Tricey all the time... We're getting pictures of you and putting them all thru her room. I even had a photo created with you and all three girls. I will have more made soon. I want Tweety to be able to see pictures of you with all of them, like it would have been. You know I have a video of Tweety the day you had her, and I came up to the hospital and we were trying to get a picture of Tweety with her eyes open... Well I didn't know it at the time but my phone was on video mode, I watched it the other day and discovered your voice on there... The video only shows Tweety, but I listen to your voice everyday. We all miss you so much, you are still so much a part of our lives... Your absence is so devestating... I miss you Duck.... See you in my dreams....

 

03-10-2008 There is no comparison on how much I miss my Aunt Tricey.You were always here for me and you let me get away with things that you know that my daddy wouldn't  go for.Your sweet,innocent smile gives joy to me.I mourn and miss you every day.There is not one second where I stop thinking about you.You were one of the few that brought joy into my life.I love the way that every time I call you would say "Hey Christy,where Jay at?"Every time I told you that it was your niece,Cydney,you would laugh and say my bad.I keep waiting for that call and for you to say that again.I miss your voice,i miss your smile,and what i miss the most is YOU!!!I want you to always know that I love you and miss you.

Love your niece,Cydney

 

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